Hope

I am suffering from depression and having high tension, because of my business falling down and all my hard work is worthless. Some time I really feel that the trouble I am having is very serious and I am not finding way to solve. Usually my thought is positive and I work positively too but when thing goes wrong and all the effort goes insignificant then mind doesn’t think right way.

To make the mind fresh and to over come from depression, I joined Yoga class from June 2010. Yoga class relieved me slowly. I wish this class will bring my positive thinking and encouragement back.  I really struggle from very young age but I never had disappointment. I always got something afterwards and always saw improvement. I know thing does not happen same all the time which I had experienced earlier but I never lost one after another. I don't know why time does not cope? Why all my decision goes wrong? And why my plan doesn’t work out? 

I know behind the darkness there is brightness too. Still I am alive waiting for the brightness to increase my strength and to bring back the encouragement I joined the Yoga class its helping me a little bit. At least two hours every day my mind calm down and that helps another four-five hours.  I am hoping the better day and the better future ahead..........................

Life

The life in reality is so doubtful. Last year, I took a close look at my life. Every moment I found it full of fear, felt hopeless, unsecured and losing confident. Last one year I haven't had a single moment to enjoy. I really worked hard, used my knowledge and put all my effort to build better business but nothing happened, my business didn’t improve and my life is getting worse and worse. I am so scared looking ahead, looking my family, looking my son’s education and looking at the present conditions. I am feeling so hopeless; my every effort turned out meaningless and did not work. I feel so unsecured, I have lost everything, and whatever I made is all gone. I am really losing my confident I really worked hard to build a sustained business. I invest all my money, time and knowledge but in return I got nothing. 

In March 2009 I started a new restaurant at a new place with courage, confident, hope and happiness. I never thought this business would damage my life. I never lose my confident and never been sad but when the business went down and all my effort became meaningless.  Some time I feel like I am going to be mad, my mind does not work and I just feel tired. My mood is always off and I have no courage to do any work. I am not sure the business I am doing is right or wrong? Or I have the right knowledge for a restaurant?  Whatever, money, time and knowledge I have spent? I used many different techniques to make the business better, but there’s no improvement. All these conditions unknowingly dragging me into sadness.............................